8 by 52 or is it?
Of late, I have had a feeling that my blog name may well end up being redundant. I don't feel I belong to this world.
8 * 52 seems to restrict me to a strangely incestuous world of mediocre people where everybody knows everybody, is married to somebody but is seeing somebody else and where anybody who is half-way decent is a nobody.
I think I have seen enough in my three years as a journalist and I feel an urgent need to move on, before life passes me by.
There used to be this restaurant in CP (it still exists I think) called 'Don't Pass Me By', tucked away behind one of those buildings which stand between Shivaji Stadium and Janpath. It used to sell Chinese. I had passed it by several times as a college student. One day as I was wrapping up some work in CP (which consisted of my friend Ninon augmenting her collection of MBs), we passed the place again. This time, we couldn't pass it by. We went in and had chowmein - she had chicken and since I used to be vegetarian back then, I had veg chow. For a neat sum of Rs 30, both of us had a sumptuous Chinese meal.
A good six years later, that place seems to haunt me each day as I head to office, still debating with myself whether I should give up my job as a reasonably well-established journo and pursue further studies or just continue here (It's the brand, people will tell you, the name sells, how can you just give it up?). Gradually, however, I am beginning to feel life will pass me by if I continue and suddenly, one day I will be 35 and still running after peons of pompous bureaucrats, begging them for an appointment. Will I want to do it at 35 or 45 or 55? Will I have the stamina, the energy or the drive to do so ? I don't think so. My enthusiasm seems to be flagging already and whatever little English language skills I have, seem to be getting eroded with each passing day.
The daily grind of churning out something newsworthy also seems to be taking its toll.
And so, I have decided that I need a break. And that it's time I gift myself one.
So, it's bye-bye to the world of 8 * 52, at least for now. Will I make a comeback? I don't know. Will I actually be able to go ahead and sever my ties with what has been my world for more than three years now? Frankly, I don't know that either.
What I know is that I want to get back to a normal life, where I can get up at an earthly hour, leave office well before a time when there are only dogs on the streets, stop commuting all over the city so much so that autowallahs now give me special discounts, switch off my cell phone, at least during the night and not take official calls at 2 am.
I want to have an off on a Sunday and I want to enjoy my life. That's not too much to ask for, is it?
8 * 52 seems to restrict me to a strangely incestuous world of mediocre people where everybody knows everybody, is married to somebody but is seeing somebody else and where anybody who is half-way decent is a nobody.
I think I have seen enough in my three years as a journalist and I feel an urgent need to move on, before life passes me by.
There used to be this restaurant in CP (it still exists I think) called 'Don't Pass Me By', tucked away behind one of those buildings which stand between Shivaji Stadium and Janpath. It used to sell Chinese. I had passed it by several times as a college student. One day as I was wrapping up some work in CP (which consisted of my friend Ninon augmenting her collection of MBs), we passed the place again. This time, we couldn't pass it by. We went in and had chowmein - she had chicken and since I used to be vegetarian back then, I had veg chow. For a neat sum of Rs 30, both of us had a sumptuous Chinese meal.
A good six years later, that place seems to haunt me each day as I head to office, still debating with myself whether I should give up my job as a reasonably well-established journo and pursue further studies or just continue here (It's the brand, people will tell you, the name sells, how can you just give it up?). Gradually, however, I am beginning to feel life will pass me by if I continue and suddenly, one day I will be 35 and still running after peons of pompous bureaucrats, begging them for an appointment. Will I want to do it at 35 or 45 or 55? Will I have the stamina, the energy or the drive to do so ? I don't think so. My enthusiasm seems to be flagging already and whatever little English language skills I have, seem to be getting eroded with each passing day.
The daily grind of churning out something newsworthy also seems to be taking its toll.
And so, I have decided that I need a break. And that it's time I gift myself one.
So, it's bye-bye to the world of 8 * 52, at least for now. Will I make a comeback? I don't know. Will I actually be able to go ahead and sever my ties with what has been my world for more than three years now? Frankly, I don't know that either.
What I know is that I want to get back to a normal life, where I can get up at an earthly hour, leave office well before a time when there are only dogs on the streets, stop commuting all over the city so much so that autowallahs now give me special discounts, switch off my cell phone, at least during the night and not take official calls at 2 am.
I want to have an off on a Sunday and I want to enjoy my life. That's not too much to ask for, is it?